HAVE YOU SEEN ZANDILE?
LULAMA Uphi Zandile? Where are you? What are you doing? It’s getting late and you must still cut more grass.
ZANDILE Hawu Mama, I’m afraid of the mice.
LULAMA What are they going to do? Are they going to eat you up? [Sees the letter] And what is this… this child is full of dreams.
[She rubs the letter out with her feet. Zandile and Lulama mime cutting grass with sickle. Lulama looks up at Zandile] Zandile bend lower. You must cut the grass at the bottom
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ZANDILE The grass is cutting my hands Mama.
LULAMA I don’t know what to do with this child now.
ZANDILE And you don’t know what to do with me.
LULAMA I want you to grow up and be a strong woman and…
ZANDILE I’m going to be a teacher.
LULAMA Not here. You have to work outside here, where the men can see you.
ZANDILE Men can see me if I teach.
LULAMA Where are you going to teach here? Are you going to teach the goats? Sit down. I want to talk to you. What are you doing?
ZANDILE [Mumbles, scratching her left leg] The grass is itchy Mama.
LULAMA …In a few years you have to be married. Who do you think is going o marry if you can’t do a woman’s work?
ZANDILE I’m not going to get married. I am very good at school.
LULAMA… Zandile, listen to me. I was talking to Matshezi the other day. Do you know her son?
ZANDILE Yebo Mama.
LULAMA His family wants you.
ZANDILE But I don’t want him.
LULAMA What do you mean you don’t want him? His uncle has the richest family in the whole village. He could have chosen any girl in the village and he choose you. That’s how I got married as well. You must have you own house.
ZANDILE But I don’t like him. He’s got all these ugly scars on his face.
LULAMA But that’s our tradition…Life is different here. No time for rest- just work. If you learn that then you will make a good wife for Matshezi’s son.
ZANDILE I don’t know why you took me from Gogo, if you are just going to give me away to Matshezi’s son.
LULAMA Zandile I took you away because you are my child.
ZANDILE But you don’t even let me visit grandmother.
LULAMA I cant because if I let you go there, you will never come back again. I know you were happy there, I saw you that night.
ZANDILE You saw me Mama?
LULAMA Yes, when I went to visit your grandmother in Durban. [Sits] I wanted to take you then, but I knew Gogo would never let you go, after all those years, you had become her child.
ZANDILE But you shouldn’t have stolen me.
LULAMA How else was I going to get you? Wait till you have a child, you’ll know what I’ve been going through all these years. How do you think it feels to know that your child doesn’t even know you exist?
ZANDILE … Why are you in such a hurry to give me away, if you missed me so much?
LULAMA But that’s our tradition. It was the same when I got married. By the time I was 22, I already had four children.
ZANDILE But I don’t even like him.
LULAMA You don’t have to like him, he has to like you. Do you think I was happy with my husband? But he chose me. I had to stay married top him.
ZANDILE But he left you.
LULAMA Its easy for men to go.
ZANDILE And you also left me all those years.
LUOLAMA I left you because I had to. Do you think my husband would have accepted you? He would have killed me if I had come to his home with another man’s child. My going to find work in Durban was bad enough- even though he knew I was forced to because he was not brining us any money…1958…[pause] That was a difficult time for me. Then something happened, I bumped into an old friend that I grew up with here. Dudu looks so happy and beautiful and I could see that she had a good job.
ZANDILE She was a teacher?
LULAMA No, she was a singer with a successful group called ‘Mtateni Queens”, and one of their singers had just left the band, so Dudu asked me if I would like to join the group.
ZANDILE [Holding back laughter] Haai bo wean!
LULAMA Yes, before Duddu left here we used to sing together for all the weddings, we were quite famous around here. There would never be a wedding without us singing.
[Does a bit of the wedding song]
ZANDILE I wish I could have seen that.
LULAMA I thought I could earn better money, but it was hard work.
ZANDILE Harder work than here?
LULAMA [Laughs] Oho! Much harder and I had to send my money back to Transkei for the children.
ZANDILE Why did you stay then?
LULAMA I stayed, hoping for better things to come, but they didn’t. That’s why I have learnt not to live on hopes, that is why I am teaching you to work. The sun is going down, its time to cook supper. Run and start the fire, Ill call you back when the bundles are ready.
As Lulama mimes gathering the bundles, she starts to sing the same wedding song. As she picks up the last bundle, she stands and arches her back, and tries to rub away the pain.